Back when I was envisioning how to incorporate Her Heart Is Glad into my photography blog, I wasn’t sure how it would work. And while I haven’t 100% nailed down how I want to go about lifestyle and personal blogging, for now, I’ll just post as I feel lead. I won’t post these thoughts on Facebook, but for those of you who just check my blog regularly, this is for you. 🙂
Matt and I obviously have a lot on our plates as you saw in the last post. But somehow being in the middle of busy-ness makes me more contemplative.
I guess it’s because when you are busy, you think about why you’re busy. What is your labor for? And so I’ve thought a lot about family.
It’s of no surprise that buying a house is part of the starting-a-family process. We plan to be here for 10 years and I’d hope that in 10 years we’d have a family.
But I’m not so much thinking about that future family as I am about my current family in the future. Aging is a difficult thing for this heart. I just can’t grasp it and wish for it to just go on and on without deterioration or struggle. But of course, that’s not the case.
My mom and I were talking about this season the other evening. My grandmother is 87 and if she lives to 100 that only means she has 13 years left. I hate thinking about that and thinking about her life remaining being so short. Same for my grandfather. I dread that phone call, the funeral, the days after, the emptiness, the phone calls. I’m tearing up just typing this!
And so, this is on my mind. Age and death and that it’s just life. I don’t get it. I don’t know if I ever will. I know death happens because of our sin and I know there is more that is far better than what we have, but man it’s hard being on this side. All I have to lean on is Christ.
Thank goodness for that hope in Him. I don’t know if I could function day-to-day without it. I feel like I’d just be depressed all the time living in a constant state of fear. All praise to our Savior for that not being the case.
So, I guess I write all this to say, enjoy and love those around you because life is always moving. But don’t let the facts of life and aging and death rule over you and keep Christ as your focus. That’s the only way I get through it.